Being sober is a trip for me. I go to meetings twice a day cuz I can’t deal or smoke weed anymore. I really don’t have anything else to do so I gotta keep myself busy. Your really not suppose to talk about what happens in meetings but I can explain to you guys the program if your already not in it.
My sponsor says you gotta work the program not just go to meetings. So I have a commitment at two meetings. That’s where you do something before or after or during the meeting. That’s called being of service. What else, oh yeah share at meetings and work the steps and pray twice a day. Also, after the meetings we usually all go out to late dinner, that’s called fellowshipping. There is usually like 30 or more people that show up. All sober peeps!!!
What a trip right??? So I do all these things and I feel great! If I slip out of these ways, trust me I start becoming this bitch and I don’t know what to do with myself. Weird right??? So I guess this program does work.
When I was 18 my parents put me in rehab cuz I was on every possible drug there was and I looked like I was ready to die at 18. So I went and hated it. I was a huge stubborn brat!!! I’m an Italian Leo!!!! I thought I knew everything!!! Anyways, I was sober for a year and a half and then I met a guy started drinking, smokin then doin lines of coke again. Damnit!!!
I’ve quit all these drugs on my own before but in NA and AA they call that a dry drunk and they promise that you will go back to your old ways because we are addicts with a disease. Most of my normy friends don’t believe I ever had a problem with anything and that I’m just getting brain washed by a bunch of weirdos. I don’t feel that way. Smokin and eighth a day is a big problem. That’s me not wanting to deal with life. Fo-Sho!!!They would’nt have this program if it didn’t work for all these addicts. I love it for now and I just take one day at a time and don’t think about my future. I’m just grateful that I’m sober today!!!!
You guys have a good day and check out my blogs cuz I will be updating them daily. It won’t be about my sobriety everyday. I promise!!!
TMFR
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April 2nd, 2008 at 4:39 pm
I am a fan of Taylor. However, I must admit that I did not see Taylor’s movies until 2007. Still, I have weird understanding of your life as it relates to my fuck up situation. I realize retired from the biz in 2006. I have similar experiences as you might of had, but not on a mainstream public eye situation.
Anywho, wish you had a forum that didn’t cost $ for people to share……….
Peace,
Sonny
July 16th, 2008 at 9:17 pm
Taylor, Havent been on your site in some time.. I saw one of your movies a couple of years ago and thought you were so sexy and had a Fine Ass girl…. WEEEW FINE ASS.. Kinda shocked to hear that your pregnant but I think thats awesome. I also was shocked to read that you are sober and havent smoked in sometime and are going to meetings twice a day and doing all the things your supposed to too “work it” I think thats great. I also took to heart the comments you made about being a dry drunk and how most people will go back to it as I have done that with Drugs and Alcohol and I havent done anything in about 5 months but I havent gone to one meeting. For a time I did go to meeting about two years ago and went about 33 days and then went to a WWE Raw event in Chicago and got hammered never went back to AA. I think the main problem im having is I dont know that I believe in god and my father is a recovering alcoholic whos been sober for many years like 25 and I dont know I never wanted to be like him I guess.. Being a drunk or not being able to control my drunk, if you know what I mean. Im 33 years old have a good job am good looking but Im still not happy with my life…. I think reading your old BLOG here has convinced me that maybe Im a Dry Drunk and need to go back to AA and “Work It” and keep coming back cuz it works so I would just like to simply say THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Keep writing about the sober stuff as this is your new SOBER LIFE and if people dont like it FUCK EM……. Write about what ever you want at the time your writing. Any how THANSK AGAIN…..:):):):):):):):) Andy
July 25th, 2008 at 2:06 pm
I am also a fan of Taylor. And I see no prob in smoking and eighth a day. or even smoking weed at all. Weed is a natural plant that multiplies everything u do. u laugh during the day im sure, well if u smoked sensi you would laugh alot more. at least thats how i see it. drinking and the other drugs to me are nasty. im afraid to die and thats all those things will do for you. its all in ur head. just leave a place if u feel like your going to do those drugs if others are doing it around you or just keep that in mind. anyways have an awsome day and stay incredibly sexy like you already are.
Peace
March 8th, 2009 at 3:23 pm
Use the force TR. Keep on trudging. Southern coastal OC AA is the greatest. You’re doing great! I try not to listen to what’s between my ears so much today. The 3 M’s are meetings, meetings, meetings. The Steps protect the individual as the Traditions protect the group. ODAAT
June 3rd, 2009 at 6:59 pm
I am in a frenzy over fathers day coming up. My dad is soo cool let me tell you. No really I haven’t the slighest clue what to get him for fathers day. Most years I don’t really get my dad anything for fathers day. He didn’t provide anything for me, I mean I paid for my college myself, bought my first car myself, oops this isn’t my appointment with my shrink. I know im slap happy people just tell me what hobbies your fathers have for this coming holiday please please. Actually I just need your opinions on what to get dad for fathers day.
June 27th, 2009 at 8:03 pm
Well, im disapointed that you dont update everyday but being a celeb you must have a busy life. Plus being on the computer all the time can be a downer, especially with haters. Yeah, so after going through AA do you feel like slipping back at all? I dont know, i tell a friend of mine that i think she is perfect. I think you are a great person too. I mean when you’re young you should try new things and experiment. Now your retired and getting clean, or staying clean at this point, and your a mom too. fuck who ever says anything bad about you bc its in the past. Like you said, it made you who you are. Its nothing to be ashamed of or anything to hide. Be proud and tell us more about Taylor Rain and what she is up to. Fuck The Haters!