Being sober is a trip for me. I go to meetings twice a day cuz I can’t deal or smoke weed anymore. I really don’t have anything else to do so I gotta keep myself busy. Your really not suppose to talk about what happens in meetings but I can explain to you guys the program if your already not in it.
My sponsor says you gotta work the program not just go to meetings. So I have a commitment at two meetings. That’s where you do something before or after or during the meeting. That’s called being of service. What else, oh yeah share at meetings and work the steps and pray twice a day. Also, after the meetings we usually all go out to late dinner, that’s called fellowshipping. There is usually like 30 or more people that show up. All sober peeps!!!
What a trip right??? So I do all these things and I feel great! If I slip out of these ways, trust me I start becoming this bitch and I don’t know what to do with myself. Weird right??? So I guess this program does work.
When I was 18 my parents put me in rehab cuz I was on every possible drug there was and I looked like I was ready to die at 18. So I went and hated it. I was a huge stubborn brat!!! I’m an Italian Leo!!!! I thought I knew everything!!! Anyways, I was sober for a year and a half and then I met a guy started drinking, smokin then doin lines of coke again. Damnit!!!
I’ve quit all these drugs on my own before but in NA and AA they call that a dry drunk and they promise that you will go back to your old ways because we are addicts with a disease. Most of my normy friends don’t believe I ever had a problem with anything and that I’m just getting brain washed by a bunch of weirdos. I don’t feel that way. Smokin and eighth a day is a big problem. That’s me not wanting to deal with life. Fo-Sho!!!They would’nt have this program if it didn’t work for all these addicts. I love it for now and I just take one day at a time and don’t think about my future. I’m just grateful that I’m sober today!!!!
You guys have a good day and check out my blogs cuz I will be updating them daily. It won’t be about my sobriety everyday. I promise!!!
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